This one...

is still a bit dark, attempt number 2, mainly cuz I painted it the same day as the last one, but I was mad and frustrated, so I came up with "Fireworks"

Don't know....

.....what I was trying to do here.  I was feeling like crap, thus the dark, but what I was seeing in my head, wasn't and didn't come out on canvas.  This was my first attempt.....

Paintings

So.....I started painting as part of "art therapy" for myself to try and deal with my illness.  Seems to be helping I think.   I get to put down on canvas how I'm feeling at the time, like this one, can u guess what was going on at the time..???

New Hobby

I took up painting.  I've always liked doing it, use to in highschool, but never persued it.  So, I thought, what the hell, I'll start it up again.  I thought I could use it as therapy and a stress reliever.  I've done 4 already in 2 days and I'm liking it.  My wife doesn't like the fact I took "her space" in the arts and crafts room, but she seems to like the idea (and some of the work).  Let's see where this takes me shall we.

Like the energizer bunny...........

.......it just keeps going and going.....and it's a pain in the ass!  The abcess I have been dealing with since last November, has come up yet again.  Which isn't too bad I guess seeing it does drain, BUT I want it to just go away.  And we all know THAT isn't going to happen.  I hate it, cuz it hurts, it's physically and mentally draining and it makes be really bitchy to people, especially my family and I hate myself when it happens.  I just hate it.

Cool!

I found out this week that I can access my bloodwork online just as fast as my doctor gets it.....so cool.  It already confirms what I already new, but it's still cool!
White count up, iron low, B12 low, etc etc.  Time for some shots!!!

I just gets better and better

Now I have a chest infection.  Have no idea how I got it, but there it is.  I was coughing for 2 weeks, so I thought maybe I should get that checked and sure enough.....What is worse is, the antibiotics they gave me are wreaking havoc on my Crohns.  Oh well, a little give and take I guess.

It's all about Me

Happy Birthday to me!  Living with this crap for 21 years now, when will it ever end, or will it?

coughing

I hate getting a cold, especially the coughing.  Wreaks havoc on my insides.  After hours of coughing it feels like I've been punched in the stomach over and over.  Need to relax.....hmmm, two kids and a house to paint, maybe not.

Family

Sometimes, and some days, I feel like just giving up.  Giving in.  It wins.  But then I think about the great wife and kids I have and I can't let them down.  I feel bad I can't do the things a regular dad/husband would and can do and I hope one day they would be able to understand.  So it's days like this I need a stiff drink I think